Why is it that winning is the only way out for me? Everything else just seems unacceptable. I have this rush of energy that keep urging me on. I am not sure if this is a good or a bad thing. I know in sometime I will make my peace with it but till then I will torture myself with self-contempt. I need to learn to not let this affect me and the people around me.

You know Binoy, the problem with you is you don't wanna end up being "nearly the best". Everything is about winning, enit?