Life' just like that

It's really really weird how life has its ways. No matter how much you're tempted to feel you're on a high, bang! right there, life gets you back to earth. Thankfully for me, I wasn't too high and I had a not too awkward landing.

Relinquishing control. How many of us really understand what that means? I don't know about the world but that means a heck of a lot to me. It's huge, its massive, its humongous. Above all its scary. And as time passed by I realized it's not really about relinquishing anything rather strengthening an already existing foundation. What is making me write this? I don't quite know but what I do know is in between all this there is a chance of one getting a jolt out of the blue.When that did happen what made me get up and go on was the foundation that I had unknowingly built all these years by just living life. It's funny in that the least expected channel could potentially sabotage everything, make a crack in those foundations or ... or the very same channel could be a true test of its resilience. There is a fine line between the two and I for one kept dwindling between them till I made my peace with it. Long confusing rambling made short, I am what I am and I made myself proud today. I have only God to thank for.

On a lighter note, I heard my friend say this about someone that had me in splits. "Waste of Mankind!"
Let me say that again. "Waste of Mankind!"
Do you realize that there is not one good comeback from that. Its such a freaking brilliant statement. No seriously, try imagining the statement. Waste of mankind. As if there isn't dearth of humankind on this planet, to actually be called the "waste of mankind". Brilliant! I am sure not many will even fathom what I am saying here but whatever be it, I laughed so hard and so long it reminded me of aachaey laughter sessions.
I truly be.

Banal

I happened to go back and read one of my own posts and was amazed at how long ago it seemed. I think I would like a time machine at my disposal.

And with time my simulation runs seems to be taking longer and longer. May 8th, 4:12pm,Building E, Office 3349. Thanks to a certain Ms X (name changed to protect privacy) it seems a much better life than those Intel Managers who don't do squat and make the poor interns work.

This is how a bored, sleepy and listless engineer sounds like.

Formulating an Answer

May 4th, 10.50 pm - May 5th, 1.30 am , 2008.

I hope I can maintain this. It's a start and maybe this is the time God decides to bless my mom. Everything is through her, that wont ever change.